tell me?

which is more fuck up?

got money
or
no money

LOL !!

i'm seriously lost
it seems like my future is well planned
it seems like my future is well assured
yet
it seems there's so much deviation from expectations
wish there's someone there to hear me

sad story
*sigh*
*smile*

if, one day, some millionaire came and tell you
"Son, you're my son"

be glad or not
its your life
its your fate

are you glad?

我不是你想像的那么勇敢
梁文音

有时候太坚强 笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏 歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处 OH~
你不要追问我 还缺了些什麽

每个人都有梦 幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最后一站
我强问我自己 现在还没有个答案

我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

每个人都有梦 幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望 越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最后一站
我强问我自己 现在还没有个答案

我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装 像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢


dearest of the dearest
this is the song for you
love you many many
take care

How not to be a sad story...
Happiness is a skill that can be learned. To acquire this skill, it is necessary to master two basic skills:

1) The ability to focus on happiness-producing thoughts, as opposed to those which cause unhappiness.

2) The ability to evaluate events and situations as positive instead of negative. (Or at least to lower the degree of negativity - i.e. rather than considering some discomfort as a tragedy, evaluating it as minor.

3)Smile :). It makes people around you feel better and happier.



suffer silently from injustice in work

its gonna be two months soon if i don't update.
Oh wells, working is just FUN
It made me feels alive i guess
there are good things
there also bad things
Overall, i enjoyed my 3months here, 2 more months to go
many things are happening as well in my personal life as well as my family
good things actually
but well, it may not seems good to me thou
because, very soon, i might lose my freedom
i'm going to keep you guys suspended
not going to leak any sort of information
those who got the hint in one way or another
please keep silent about it
because decision has yet to be made
i hope decision making won't come so early
alright !!
take care peeps !!
really miss cheering whole day and night
miss gym whole day and night

人在做﹐天在看
我始終抱持著我的理念
我無須承擔別人的錯
錯也只錯在於我的無能
我會繼續努力
我會繼續加油
這種事是不會再發生了
對不起

"i hate loneliness
but it loves me"


sounds familiar isnt?
hahaha
lol

saw this photo
hmmmm
loooooks so much different now
hahax !!

終於明白什麼叫

‘賤貨’

after all the fun, laughter and joy
you woke up in the morning
realising that you're once again alone
going through the motion everyday again
then you ask yourself
the question you've never ask yourself for the past 5years
"What's the true meaning of life?"
then you realised that you're back to where you begin
in search for the very reason of your existence
then you find none
then you have to put up a mask once again
a mask of "fulfilling life"
a mask of "true friend"
a mask of "hark worker"
a mask of "good"
a mask of "life"
does living a life on earth means collecting mask
so at the end of our life
when our achievement is determined
at our very own funeral
we look at the number of attendance
our achievement, defined by the number of masks we've collected
but wells
maybe loneliness killed many people
it is still continuing its killing spree
does having a partner means that you would never feel loneliness?
does having a partner means that you found your purpose in life?
does the fact that you have a partner even means anything at all?
if it doesn't
why does the world seek after such luxury?
or at certain point of our life
we realised that
we YEARNED for it more than anything else
maybe
its time to reflect once again












a side note to Ken

Hey Ken, you've not been living your life properly
I know you know that yourself
Just that, sometimes, its a little difficult to control a certain situation
But, you can control yourself
And sometimes, please do not allow yourself to be lowered alright?
You deserved more than that
Your friend deserved more than that as well
Think of others when you make your decision
Because, nobody in the world in an entity
look, search, seek, find
There are contradiction in the world which we couldn't agree to
But there's nothing we can do about
Thou, a man can makes a difference
It is minimal
So, Ken, go and think of what you truly wants
Are all the sort of things you've done what you really want in your life?
I'm saying LIFE not NOW
Go, decide on what you want

Loves,
Ken

*sigh*
disappointed
either you changed or i didn't know you well enough to start with
your response was rather disappointing you know?
are you scared?
are you afraid?
are you feeling inferior?
what are you scared of, like seriously?
that the pool would deplete?
you forget one important factor
defiance is human's nature
difference in culture makes a great difference
i hope you understand
if not
maybe
you should stay home and enjoy yourself

' hard work pays off '
this is a very good example of that
everyone knows weihao as "WoW, FIT sia"
but, does anyone know how he start out as?
this is him NOW !!


















this is weihao 10months back


if you think you worked real hard
work harder

PS: Ken, please work hard too !!

Turn-off #1: Guys who are self centered and are only interested in conversations regarding themselves. I mean seriously, if you love yourself THAT much, go talk to yourself in the mirror! Like duhhh. It's freaking boring FYI.

this is to fiona

what a great mistake!
i agree!
not even talking about a date
i mean who would want to go out with a friend that whole day only talk about themselves?
and that doesn't concern about the other party
HOWEVER !!
on the other hand
if the guy ask the girl to talk and they just FUCKING keep quiet?
then how?
isn't it AWKWARD to have a silent?
and guys have to find some topic right?
in order not to make the girl paiseh right?
then girl would argue, then keep quiet lo
like that romantic mah
yea right, there are some girls who think that this guy is boring and DON'T KNOW how to create topic to talk about
so the conclusion?
girls got no brain?
guys got no brain?
i think girls are seriously hard to understand
even though they are SIMPLE MINDED
;)
dumb
actually
i think the 'feeeling' factor matters a lot to girl
the 'chemistry' must be there
even though that guy can be some uber handsome guy
if no feeeeeeling = no way
if got chemistry
that guy can be average looking
they will still HIT ON
girls

greatest shame in my life
sad to say
i was wasted yesterday
yeah
freaking drunk yesterday
Martel at office
Macallan at Vila Bali
Chivas at Boiler Room

thou i tried
yet
i'm still stucked
people may tell me
"Its a great start"
but, i'm still at the starting point
maybe, it is really very difficult for me to break off from my morality boundaries
good?
bad?
depends on the situation i guess
good - i'm still morally right
bad - i will remain who i was and certain things would be out of reach

oh wells
move on behhhhh
life's much greater that that
sleeeeeep
^^

ahhhh !!
i met esther !!
ok
i know
but its esther !!
someone hold quite high position in my heart ya know
lol !!
hahahahax !!
i was abit over joyed and ya
misbehaved?
hahahahahax !!
oooops !!
aiyax !!
not everyone would and could understand
^^

when did YOU DETERIORATED to this extent?
being mediocre is BAD enough
since when being LOWER than MEDIOCRE is acceptable?
yes, you used to have SOME losers' fragment
when did get this this HUGE?
what are you doing?
what are you people doing?
cease your presence please, losers
its irritating to see these fragments
doing nothing but what they do best
IRRITATES you
the old you
the love we loved
maybe its time to leave you alone
maybe its time to say goodbye

如果你堅持了還不能成功
那就代表你
『不夠堅持』

quoted from mao jiao lian

i think its the same theory as

If, you tried very hard but you didn't win
it only means that other people wants to win more than you do

wheeeee
sentosa on wednesday
excited

How is "I failed without trying" more dignifying than "I tried and failed"?

it was my friend's facebook's wall post

my reply was
"NO extra efforts TRYING are WASTED"

one guy reply
"its less"

then i replied
"its just a different perspectives of doing things.. for example: Would you go and TRY to do something which God wouldn't 'approve' or 'allow'? Then how justifiable that you said TRIED and FAILED is more dignifying than FAILED w/o TRYING since you DID NOT even TRY to do what God wouldn't approve? :)

another guy reply
"its the wisdom gained through trying"

i was too lazy to start one whole page of essay to counter each and every of their argument
basically
UP TO YOU to decide
whether its worth trying or is it not
some feels that its worth to do this and sacrifice that
however, some felt otherwise
so, its basically your perception of the situation and the weightage of each components involved

"The work goes on,
the cause endures,
the hope still lives
and the dream shall never die"

- Senator Edward Kennedy

view and counter-views contribute to the making of better policies

today i was on the bus back home
pass by farrer park station
as expected, quite a number of indians boarded the bus
there was this young indian couple sat in front of me
few seconds after they sat down
i smelled a CHEESY smell
and i wonder where does it come from and when does indian starts to smell like cheese
then i look around
OOH !! the couple was eating CHeezels
i lean forward and said "Uncle, no eating on bus"
LOL !!
ohwells
it seeems mean but actually
ITS FOR THEIR GOOD ya know?!
aligning myself with MR.Lee Hsien Loong said during the NDP Rally


YA RIGHT
crap
go study liao
bye ~

Happy Birthday Amy Ong
may you forever21, stay pretty and cheerful


PS: THIS IS SO DAMN RANDOM !!

ohwells
whatever

日尋夜覓
始終只能找到您
欲問
為何是您
為何?
為何?
為什麼是您?!!
說聲
別把我逼上絕路好嗎
擁著
抱著
睡吧孩子
睡吧
累了就睡
痛了就睡

i have a really really really serious BAD feelings about my knee right now
its super duper uber ultimate painful
RAWR !!
ARGHhhhhhhh
$%*)(*&#$@$&*(&#$@!#$^&*(&#$@

"being a member of a team doesn't mean that you receive the help of others. It means you put forth your very best as if your life depended on it. To try and be of help to every other members of the team"

simply astonished
have i done my part?
i, sincerely doubt so

你可以執著 cheerleading
我也可以執著


dear friend
for a moment i was stunned
and i do not know how to react to this
oops !
I don't want to sound offensive to your 執著
i just felt that our 執著 is different
i know your 執著
i respect your 執著
i believe and understand your 執著
however sometimes
your 執著 involves others as well
yes i am 執著 about cheerleading
but i did not ask you to join cheerleading
your are 執著 over that we have to follow your way
because you believe your way is THE WAY
although i don't feel in any way your 執著 is bad
in fact, i think your 執著 is good
and i know is meant for our good
but sometimes
not everyone can follow it immediately
just give them some time
yes, 21years old is no longer young
sometimes, people just need to go through this stage
not everyone comes from the same background
and able to comprehend the situation like how you did
and definitely i can also understand the preventive measure you have to take
just
give them some time
all in all
i still love you very much
because you are you
:)

memory is a knife
it can hurt you

indeed memory is a knife
it can hurt you
and yourself is the sharpener
the more you think about it
the sharper the knife gets
and it will consistently and continuously hurting you
sometimes
its good to let go of memory especially those that are hurtful

"do you really deserve the position you're holding?"















WILDCARDS ROCKS !!

with great power
comes great responsibility

shimu
congrats upon your graduation
:)

when u aspire to be something almost impossible
hard not to appear hypocritical

I like your Christ, I do not like you Christians. You Christians are so unlike your Christ.



this is my friend's MSN nick
according to him
it was from Ghandi !!
christians out there
this the image people have about you
OF COURSE !!
i know my friends aren't like that
i really love my christians friends who are close to me
others
hahahax !!
they are the same as DESCRIBED
hypocrites??

if you're saying that i'm always complaining
ok, i got what you mean
i would like to explain myself that
i'm weak
that's why i complain a lot
sorry for being weak
i will train much much harder
making sure that you guys are flawless
hopefully it will makes you happy


i want to get a mirror that will consistently reflect all my bad points and non on my good ones so that i will learn from it
anyone selling it?


tone down !!
be focus !!


remind me please
look at the good things and not the bad things


president of SMB club


enough of it already



shut up and lift
or
stay down








CATCH UP OR STAY BEHIND





oh !! btw!!
i just got reminded of another thing
be mindful that different people expressing their concern differently
your parent scold you doesn't mean that they don't love you
actually they love you more than you imagine
or its just that you're too INSENSITIVE to feel it






LEARN TO FACE THE FUCKING TRUTH BEFORE WE FORCE IT DOWN YOUR THROAT YOU FAGGOT

this was taken during the first time i went to wildcards training
shifu
you flick OUTWARDS !!

比上不足﹐比下有餘
its quite a bit of thoughts here
if you compare to people below you
you will feel complacent
if you compare to people above you
you will not be contended with what you have
so its rather tricky here to know how to balance between the two
jiayou
jiayou



伴君如伴虎
you will never know when your boss gonna come at you
so the best is to shut their mouth before they could find a reason to bite at you
hahahax !!
once again that's life










learn to NOT take things so personally?
you will live a better life

fear
creeps in silently
guilt
clings on
bind me down
crippled
stretching out my arms
look, hope, yearn for a saviour
no one came?
some one came actually
just that, i withdrew my arms
guilt blinded me

*wait till i can think somemore*
emo?
whatever !
haha
;)

總覺得
生命毫無意義
都不知道最近為了什麼而活
只不過休假一個禮拜
就已覺得生命里少了一些些東西
你﹐真的有那麼重要嗎


我要去旅行
或許又在想著逃避了
雖然曾說過‘這將會是最後一次’
可是
唉
嘆
嘆傻瓜
嘆無奈
神啊
如果神真的存在著
您當然存在啦
靠
幫我一把好嗎
超級無敵累的叻

想一想
或許到處流浪會比旅行爽吧
我喜歡無拘無束
可那也得有錢啊
靠
讀書有屁用?
沒錢
沒本事
靠
可是還是得乖乖念完
他媽的

無奈啊
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊
無奈

真的
生氣
超氣
自我憐憫
靠
我不要成為悲劇

ok !!
i'm feeling abit creeeeeeeeeepy
i just check my counter
i know my sisters are reading my blog because there are viewers from australia
but
there are people for US viewing my blog as well
my dad?
HAHAHAx !!
lOL
-.-
oooops !!



hello betsy peggy bettie mom and dad !!
WAHAHAHAX !!
leave a tag ok?
:)

騙子分為兩種

一種是只說有意義的謊言
一種是有無意義都撒謊的


我想我是後者
哈哈哈
他媽的
我是騙子!!

一個人的價值在於他的貢獻而不是他的成就


我的貢獻又是多少
我值得我被冠上的名號嗎
我的價值又是多少


沉思 !!

been having a hard time finding appropriate songs to match my feelings

hi sue !!
that's for you

there are still many different types and levels of eagles among the eagles


i'm just
an eaglet

c'mon ken
you can do it
just a couple of months more to go

endure
stay strong
work hard
don't give up
jiayou
jiayou
jiayou

chaang 常說 Don't be a sad story !!
但或許一些人無論怎麼努力還是一個悲劇



天若有情天亦老

明白嗎?


有些事還是別太執著的好

the fact that i dislike you is affecting everything we're doing
maybe, we should do something about it
sort it out, maybe?
just imagine i might see you everyday
its gonna be a painful process

had our first training with the UK cheerleaders
they are good
DAMN GOOD
its a fruitful training
attempted many things
new things
brush up old things
tomorrow gonna be another wonderful day
jiayou wildcards

take it that i was too kaypo

you can't please everyone
but you may piss everyone





becareful

i'm just glad that i managed to help some people
i can't help everyone
just glad that i impacted someone

reminder for myself

do not be a hypocrite
say what you think about others to their face
not behind them
judge for yourself
what thoughts should remains in your brain
what thoughts should be spoken of

pay it forward


remember the great things others had done for you
go and do some great things to others



ohwells
childish people won't be able to understand this
maybe you guys do
just that you ain't mature enough to do it

why does this world involves so much politics?
why can't you guys just live with each other happily?
is WINNING really that FREAKING important?
maybe it is
but, if you are so unscrupulous to obtain that victory
worth it?
maybe it is
oh wells, i hope you could really find a better life man
such a disappointment

screw the world?
no !!
SCREW you the people in the world


people don't like to offend people of high position
but
I LIKE TO DO SO
if you want to sit at that HIGH place
be prepared to be questioned by others
don't be like some losers
CONVINCE ME
if you think your way of doing thing is the UTMOST correct way of doing it



I POST BIG BIG for everyone to see

待人寬
律己嚴


i know i blogged about this before
but, it just came back to me again
hard to achieve that man
second part is easy
the first part is difficult man
somehow, we will impose our standards for people we love and care and concerned

hey guys
i need some good recommendations of some good chinese books around man
suddenly got the urge to learn some mandarin words to play with man
hahahax!!

these two books were recommended to me

诗经
人间词话

gives me a good feeling
i should go and read it

its really great to have sisters like that
its really great to have family like that

its just different
but, i'm glad
i'm part of them
:)

人生的每一步﹐都可能成為另一個錯誤﹔
可卻不能因為錯誤﹐而不邁出下一步

my medicine is really really really getting me damn drowsy
no wonder my doctor gave me 3 days MC
but, HECK the MC
i'm still going to school
WAHAHAHAHAx !!

i'm so looking forward to tomorrow that i might have a chance to eat dinner again with my sentosa lady

we train so hard to try not to be a liability
yet
we train so hard that we got injured and became the liability







f***

people make mistakes; that's why we put erasers on pencil

-X-Wonder-

my right knee is getting bad
in fact, its worst than before
it never caused me so much pain before
endured, endured and endured
sorry that i couldn't pop well
not an excuse to NOT POP WELL of course
sorry that i couldn't cushion well
not an excuse to NOT CUSHION WELL as well

sorry if i injured anyone
next time if i'm in pain
i will stop training

PS: i'm not trying to explain or try to gain sympathy

i'm not a person who like to explain


people who understands and has got eyes to see
they will UNDERSTAND without me EXPLAINING

people who do not understands and only has got eyes to see what the eyes want to see
they would not understand even if i try to explain

so why bother explaining?

i think my SIP company is damn freaking ON
in within one week of appointment
they actually offered two jobs
one which i've done on monday
a family day event
another one which is coming up
a cheerleading coaching job
i still not sure if i want to take it
$50/hour for two days
3 hours each day
co0l right?
ok !! NVM !!
-.-

indeed
3months in wildcards
i achieved liberty and cupie
shifu said it was a good improvement
look at the positive things as well
there are more to go man
really more to go
hahahax !!

thank you for the trust
totally appreciate it

first liberty with jaslyn as well as the first liberty photo with her
didn't realised until she told me
ok !!
-.-
who else i haven't do liberty with?!!




cupie?
i seriously don't feel that I'm ready for that yet
my liberty isn't that good yet
simply not good enough
my toss-to-hands failed a couple of times
which pisses me even further
ok, sucks !!
but, cupie-ing huiting was a great experience thou
can feel feel stunt
fun
cupie is fun for sure





anyway, SHIFU
you might think i want to say "SHIFU, that's for you"
nah
THAT'S DEFINITELY NOT GOOD ENOUGH YET
next time show you a video
or maybe real life one
:)
jiayou !!

stop being so easily satisfied with your current state will you?
its irritating
damn irritating
quit being a liability
at times, your friends around you
they need to put up with you and your "DREAMS"
DREAMS which you have no intention to achieve
proudly telling people THAT'S MY DREAM
or maybe when people tell you off
you reply "I CANNOT DREAM AR?"
c'mon man
be realistic
YES, you can DREAM
if that's what you wanted
then go ahead and dwell in your daylight dream



actually, i type until here
i realised something
why should i care?
hahahahax !!
i'm too lazy to be concerned anyway
hahahax !!
ok, i shall stop here

don't dislike me please

i don't really know exactly how you guys felt
BUT
that's how i thought when i read things on the blog


IF, you guys could have put in effort like the amount you guys are putting in right now
PROBABLY, we would all be at another level right now
MAYBE, you guys grown as you guys assume more RESPONSIBILITIES
GROWN to be a little more MATURE
ABLE to be SENSITIVE towards others' feelings
just WONDERING
HAVE you guys thought this way
"IF, we could have done what we are doing now back then. Things could be different now"?
It's not like I'm asking you guys to go EMO and REGRET and WHATSOEVER
Just, don't let history repeats itself
overall
I seriously believe and think that you guys really rock my socks !!
:)
jiayou !!

OK CRAP !!

early in the morning hear the news of

MICHAEL JACKSON IS DEAD

WTH !!

RAWR !!

Really, is, dots...

another talent had gone

SWINE FLU?

lol !!

it was said to be a heart attack

sometimes just wondering
whether should i continue providing helps
i know that helps are definitely needed
the fact that i'm in-debt to her made me feel obliged to return to where i consumed the WATER
however, sometimes, just felt that its a waste of time?
not exactly waste of time
just couldn't find the right word
its just, no matter how much i want to help
but the people are not helping themselves
how far can they go?
and most probably they doubt me at certain point of times

so, yeap
ohwells,
i guess


maybe SHE was right
"WHY SHOULD WE HELP?"





its a mixture of feelings
there's nothing right or wrong
just
yea
don't take it to heart people
i love you guys
you guys really ROCK my world

每一天 想一遍

編曲: A Lon 詞: Eric 演唱者: Eric/A Lon

你 在地球另一邊 溫暖的Christchurch的夏天
書包裡的相片 你我笑容沒改變

我 在世界這一邊 台北街頭的冬天
一個人 默默的喝著熱咖啡

No matter what happens
No matter where you go
我會守著誓言

風吹過我身邊
彷彿在訴說著你 給的諾言

每一天 想一遍
遠方的你是否對我一樣思念
月依舊美 少了你陪伴剩眼淚

每一天 想一遍
二十四小時關在你幸福監牢裡面
勇氣陪我度過漫長的每天


手機 響起熟悉音樂 電話那頭喊我寶貝
溫暖了我的心 天空瞬間不再灰

知道 幸福就在眼前 再等多久都不累
再遙遠 只要堅強就有永遠

No matter what happens
No matter where you go
我會守著誓言

風吹過我身邊
彷彿在訴說著你 給的諾言


每一天 想一遍
遠方的你是否對我一樣思念
月依舊美 少了你陪伴剩眼淚

每一天 想一遍
二十四小時關在你幸福監牢裡面
勇氣陪我度過漫長的每天

每一天 想一遍
期待下一秒你出現緊抱著我Babe
夜空劃過流星線 帶著我的 思念到你身邊

我會等待 等待著再次與你 牽起愛

a lot of good things have been happening eh
i got my GO for cupie from chaang
i got my SIP placement already in just one day
i got an A for my M.I.C.E test
surprises



are these good things that happen before bad omens?
hahaha !!
-.-

"the upbringing of a man comes from watching the back of the man who's walking ahead"




who's back am i watching?

hahahahahahahahx !!
lets do it again :)

ken the greatest motivator?
nah, you guys over-rated me
i think my shifu is the best

每天早上兩顆蛋、

每天早上兩顆蛋：建議每天第一餐要吃兩顆七分熟的蛋，七分熟的煎蛋最好，蛋黃不要太熟，雞蛋當中含有100％HDL，是製造血清素的原料。

膽固醇可分為好的膽固醇(即HDL)與壞的膽固醇(即LDL)，好的膽固醇每天攝取 0.3gm 即可。如果我們一天能夠吃兩個蛋，那就可以幫助人體攝取一日所需的蛋白質需求量，只要我們體內好的膽固醇含量提高，則壞的膽固醇含量相對的就會降低。然買蛋時建議購買「洗選蛋(CAS)」更佳；「阿婆鐵蛋」少吃，因其中蛋白質已變質，含致癌物喔！

好的膽固醇尚有沒有腳的海鮮類，有殼的最好，如蝦、蟹；但是魚皮, 魚鰓, 內臟及魚標禁吃，唯小卷的內臟可食，因富含防癌成分，小卷吃中間黑色粘多醣比較營養，又海參是海中生物中唯一零蛋白質的食物；再其次有好的膽固醇是兩隻腳的雞肉、鴨肉。

SOYA BEAN ROCKS !!

received an email from my friend about how to eat healthily
decided to share
its quite long actually, so i'm not going to post everything in one day
and too bad its in mandarin
ya, i'm too lazy to translate
soya bean is good !! but not too much please !!
drink in moderate !!

睡前喝豆漿、
睡前喝豆漿：豆漿富含的優質胺基酸，可製造充分的生長激素，促進身體的新陳代謝，消耗體內多餘的醣份和脂肪，所以睡前喝豆漿，有減肥的的效果，這就是「胺基酸減肥法」，又叫「懶人減肥法」。

此外，大豆富含異黃酮素（天然的雌激素），可降低血液中的膽固醇，保護心臟，預防心肌梗塞，所以女生得心血管疾病的機率只有男生的六分之一，異黃酮素並可抑制人體鈣質的流失，還可預防與基因遺傳有關的乳癌與腸癌，因此睡前喝上一杯的豆漿，冷熱甜淡隨意，可讓您有一個好睡眠、好體質。

但是現在市面上的黃豆有是基因改造的，目前基因改造的食品對人體的影響如何還未可知，如何購買非基因改造豆漿，建議購買統一、味全、光泉、黑松、義美等各品牌，尤其義美豆漿便宜 又無防腐劑喔，睡前喝比早上喝的效益更大。另外，早餐以豆漿加熱後打兩個蛋不加糖，可吸收好的蛋白質及好膽固醇。使孩子易長高。

"being strong is to have the strength to keep on living bearing all the pain worse than death"




example:
living with major failures in life







now that's being strong
i want to be that strong
MORE THAN A SAD STORY

if you look at me as a loser
congratulate yourself
because you get to witness a loser making history

why can't we just freaking live in peace?
ITS OUR COMMUNITY, you know?

why must you constantly picking fight with others?
NOT PAIN ENOUGH?

why are you so not happy with whatever other people do?

you are so damn retard at times, do you know that?
someone as highly respected as you
you do shits like that
its just
c'mon grow up man
maybe that's the reason you're stuck there for so long and going to stuck for several years ahead

"humility is not a denial of strength, but admitting your weakness"




i need to be humble
therefore
i need huMBility
LOL !!
joke aside







reminded me of several person
a whole range of people
pastors
leaders
friends
cheerleaders



who is he that hold humility in his heart?
i wondered

if you think you're the best in cheerleading
why not you just do it and show to others
you guys are so OFFENSIVE and HOSTILE
and get offended so easily
like so childish please



大話說了可得做到哦
別那石頭砸自己的腳

be an asset, not liability



just suddenly came back to me again
oh wells !!
mader !!
thats what you taught me
i still remember ok?!!
:D

i want to improve
i need to freaking get my freaking back tuck up
I DONT WANT TO BE A LIABILITY !!
RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR !!

you are so damn damn hot !!
like seriously
SUPER DUPER UBER DAMN FREAKING
HOT !!
damn !!
how did i get to know you man?
you are so DAMN HOT !!
even if you get a little fatter
you get even HOTTER !!
OH GAWD ~

okies !!
not going anymore than this
just being retarded here
can't be help

















oh wells
home all night with my grandma
woots
sianx !!


project again
sian
i mean SBS !!
Si Bei Sian





bye~

just want to say a big thank you to my previous coach
Akane Nakahara
thanks for all that you've taught me
especially arm motions and kicks
they have been really great help
now i know their importance
thank you
^^

from nothing to being able to do toss to hand and liberty in a year
that's definitely improvement
but its just not great enough





damn it !!





lalalalalala




shit ~
shit shit ~
shit shit shit ~


more of those to come
but oh wells
gotta take it as it is
haix !!
jiayou beh

just got reminded how far i've walked since i first started cheerleading
it was, its been such a long long long time
such a long walk already
and i know there're still more to come
i'm really really thankful and grateful to all those who helped me
just felt so nostalgic
those days
those moments
especially when i was stunting with ms.flyer
ohwells
those who know who she is good for you
don't spread please thank you
those who don't know
its alright
nothing big about this :)
felt so encouraged
i was stupid and stupid and stupider
not like i became cleverer
i'm still stupid and slow
those encourages kept me going
hopefully i could be the one encouraging people next time
ohwells
thousands words
decipher them for yourself
that's if you know me
hahahax !! :)
alright !!
jiayou people !!

















CONGRATS WILDCARDS FOR CHAMPION-ING SKM 2009 !!
proud of you guys to the max
love you guys to the max

thousands words in all these photos
each carry its own meaning

哀傷的歡呼聲

random !! :)

你
猶如一座冰雕
寒氣凌厲且逼人
仿彿於五百米直徑內
所有生物將被凍結
雖寒氣凌厲可冰凍他人
人們仍然向前依過去
只因人們無法抵擋你
這座優雅的冰雕
古語有道
‘明知山有虎﹐偏向虎山行’
或許有朝一日
某人得以將你冰凍的心融化
咱們就拭目以待吧

for 60secs to fill a bag, u need 2^60 bean
if u being with 2 beans, u end up 2x faster then the original timing because 2^60/2^59 = 2 !! which is 30 secs
maybe i explain it more simple for you.
1st, u need 59x of expansion to fill the room if got 1 bean.
So let it be 2^0 to 2^59
if u start with 2 bean, it wil be 2^1 to 2^59, which effectively is 58x of expension 2^59/2^58 = 2, and 60/2 = 30secs


i don't understand at all
but its ok
i seriously think that 59 secs is the answer
i don't know how to prove your math approach wrong
initially i thought of using your methos of 2^60
but somehow it didnt get the right answe
maybe i'm really stupid like you said
hahahahax !!!

to anon


one bean scenario

1 -> 2 1st sec
2 -> 4 2nd sec
4 -> 8 3rd sec


two beans scenario

2 -> 4 1st sec
4 -> 8 2nd sec
8 -> 16 3rd sec

can you see it now?
for two beans scenario
you actually start from the 2nd of the 1st bean scenario
so you see, you actually only save one sec
which was used to multiply from ONE to TWO
i hope you see it now :)

i hope everyone remember that everyone start off everything being lousy
i hope everyone remember that other people were forgiving enough to forgive your mistakes when you were lousy and new


so if you meet anyone who are new and lousy
please practice the same thing
that is to have more patience
that is to be more forgiving


don't start accusing and pushing blame
you're hurt and injured
so is other
when you felt that people caused you injuries
do remember that other people injured because of you too



and one most important point to take note is that
"YOU ARE NOT GOOD AT ALL"
be humble and ready to learn even if you're damn zai already



i saw how ZAI people are still being humble and willing to learn as they share their experiences
if you want to be ZAI
your ATTITUDE gotta be ZAI to start with




PS: certain accidents are inevitable, however, prevention could help
PS': stop whining and just do it

congratulation to the two of the saturday boys for turning 21
aiiiyooo ~
21 liao
time to get a GF la hor?
don't use me as an excuse please thanks :)
anyway,
it feeeeels like two of you brothers turning 21 and they are all ready to go into the world to have a fight for their life like that
JI GAN DONG YI XIA
we're not BFF because we're BROTHERS !!
love you guys man
aiya !!
don't know what to say la
just want to say
you guys are SO OLD !!
LOLOLOLOLOL !!
adulthood ~
woots ~
WAHAHAHAHAx !!
same rank liao hor
stop calling me old please thanks ;)
HAHAHAHAx !!
jiayou guys !!
love you guys lots lots lots man !!
:D :D

a question for everyone (do answer please)

if a bean can split itself into two every second
from 1 bean to 2 beans in the 1 sec
from 2 beans to 4 beans in the 2nd sec
from 4 beans to 8 beans in the 3rd sec

let say if the bean take 60 secs to multiply and fill a bag

how long will it need to fill the bag if the initial number of bean is 2 instead of 1?

come come come !!
shoot me your answer at tagboard :)

每個人都有做選擇的權力
每個人都有自己喜愛的興趣、偏好
但往往最後都是興趣來決定路線
不是責任、也不是義務


沒了興趣
就換個選擇
很少人會想是否得盡個義務
是否還有一份責任在


很多畢業學生
選擇了以獨招、體育表現積優等方式
進入了大學
但似乎沒想過
當初做這樣的選擇
得讓自己再往後的四年
為自己的選擇
盡一份心力
盡一份義務
甚至當作是自己的最大使命
一肩扛下來
不過
並沒有


就像你考上了公務員
你也不可能待在這環境不做事
就可以白領薪水
考上了消防員
可以不用出勤
考上了專職教師
卻可以不用教書
這些都是不可能發生的事情
縱使你進到這環境後
才發現原來這並不是你想要的時候
你還是得在這一個階段
在你找到ㄧ個新環境的開始之前
完成你必須也應該做的事情
除非你打算馬上離開這個地方


在學校裡
學生是有犯錯的權利
不過不是一錯在錯
希望在這一段時期
都能學會對自己所選負責
也能學會去接受並且愛自己所選





this article is taken from
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/tibrayyy/12967540
for referencing purposes











chose what you love and love your choice

晃一眼
早已是第三年
轉眼間
早已是學長
剎那間
就要畢業了
只有一句話

"哇﹐地發"


唉
嘆啊嘆
物以類聚
成列在我面前


超級無敵久沒用華語了
這證明我還是"zai"的
哇哈哈哈哈哈!!


曉亭
來說點好聽的華語貝
提醒提醒我一下下華語的寶貴
刺激一下我做詩的靈感




as a man think in his heart
so is he

L is for LOSER
and I'm ONLY a step from it
because
my name is
KEN

























































PS:
A,B,C.......J,K,
L

assuredly i say to you
YOU'RE A LOSER !!
wahahahax !!

:P

to my very dearest mentor/shifu/teacher/friend



i wrote a lot initially
but as i started to read through our conversations
i felt there isn't much point for me to write so mcuh
i see how far i've walked with your helps
you have achieved one of your many agenda
one of the least important
one of the most selfless agenda
i hope you would really continue to fight on for other agendas
i wish for it real hard, real real hard










sorry
i can't help it but to feel sad
real sad
really really sad
to be honest
i teared
because
i couldn't be of much help to you
unlike how you've had helped me
sorry













its gotta end somewhere, you said
all i know is that
"Its not going to end here, not here, not now"
jiayou !!

"this is not a request, it is an order, a requirement"

"stop giving yourself excuse to siam"

thank you everyone for today
especially chaaaaaaang
for being so encouraging and so challenging
i finally dare to do my backtuck
not perfect yet
not on the floor yet
but at least i can do on the mats now
next week
will be another breakthrough
i wont lose the lemon tea challenge again
jiayou ken
:)

















ohya
i learned something today
coach He said something like this today
"You've done 100 backtucks, with 98 landed perfectly, on the 99th you fell.
then you're scared already
why are you focusing on the 99th which you failed
than focusing on the 98 which you succeeded?
98 > 1
you can do it wan"


























PS: haix

GYM GYM GYM !!
RAWR !!
GYM !!
BACKTUCK !!
come come my baby backtuck !!

You love to be free like a soaring eagle, unrestrained and people will look up to you, if not now, in future they will. You are a savior and a noble lover! You'll make great sacrifices for your love with nothing intended in return but only their freedom. Your love should be proud of u! JiaYous!!



hahahahax !!
somehow, felt that it's true
esp those highlighted in red

thou there are many many many pros in this cheerleading industry
i still think my shifu, Mr.Liu Xing Wei a.k.a Star is the best !!




WAHAHAHX !!
ok, i was being random
was watching alot of videos
i still think shifu is the best
jiayou shifu
there're still alot of things you need to accomplish !! :D

the moral of the story is
or rather the lesson we learn from this is

"DO NOT JUDGE, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOUR FACTS ARE ONE SIDED"












gather more facts
listen to more people

everyone wants to feel appreciated
everyone wants to be believed in
the day you stop appreciating people
the day you stop believing in people
you're as good as gone















many time as we thought we are doing justice for good
how many times we really thought how justifiable our justice is?
does getting support from others means it is justice?
does others' disapproval means it is not justice?
justice is a vague term
what seems to us is justice may not be to others
at the end of the day
i felt, we should always work under one principle
that is
DO NOT JUDGE
there must be a reason why people does thing the way they did
sometimes bounded by the situation
sometimes being stupid
sometimes being silly
sometimes being naive
sometimes being ignorant
sometimes being childish
sometimes being wise
sometimes being trying to be excellent
sometimes being......
the list goes on and on




life is made up of decisions we made
every every little situation we make decision
big and small decisions
add up to be our life you're lived
i just hope people would be more wise
when they make the decision
especially who they want to follow


life sucks
take drugs

so what if life sucks?
you still can make it a great on
because its just a decision away
life sucks
it still carries on
so, make the right decision

i didn't know christian could behave this way
maybe he is just not a christian from the bottom of his heart
or maybe we could try to argue it with this statement
"no man is perfect"
that's quite sad
sad
so saddening
haix !!
life sucks
take drugs




































you thought you're helping
but you're just merely penetrating your ideas into their mind
so, what different do you have with people of seniority?
people who listen to them, they approve
people who rebelled again them, they discard

JUST DO IT !!!!!

這是一句NIKE很棒的廣告詞
也是一句在專項運動過程中
很實用的一句話
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
到現在為止
雖然教學沒有多長的時間
但卻也遇見過很多種不同條件的小朋友們
其實我師大畢業後
學科似乎沒學到什麼
但是對一句話
到現在
印象都還很深刻
那就是:
『沒有學不會的學生；只有不會教的老師』
任何學生的先天條件
你都要學著接受
並且整理出一套有時候
只有他能接收到訊息的教學
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
不過話說回來
當有些人看到同學間的進步大於自己過多的時候
最大的反應就是對自己失望、失去信心、失去學習的動力
甚至想退出這個環境
當這樣的想法出現時
如果沒能及時調整心態
就算教學的方式再正確
也很難派上用場
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
這時候
唯有相信自己
唯有相信教練
唯有堅持下去
才能夠體會到
『學習是需要時間』
這句話
從幾個學生的例子
我看到了這個事實
從側翻不會用腳落地
到可以自己做後手翻
從跑步都不協調
到可以自己停倒立
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
我曾經問過他們
你不覺得你比別人進步都還慢嗎??
他們回答:是阿
那你們為什麼現在可以做到這些動作
他們回答:因為你就說做就對了
我感到很欣慰
也很心疼
欣慰的是
我的學生可以很相信我
心疼的是
他們要能接受比別人更多的失敗
要能忍受比別人花更多的時間練習
現在
他們不但已經漸漸跟上當初與隊友間的落差
更是準備要超越當初條件就不錯的隊友們
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
看到這些例子
讓我更能確定
只要掌握好方向
只要掌握好技術
剩下的
只要『做』就對了


JUST DO IT !!!!


大家加油~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


http://www.wretch.cc/blog/tibrayyy/12911950

GREATEST MOMENT IN MY LIFE
TODAY I TWISTED MY LEFT ANKLE
it was ok in the beginning
and i can still jumping around and do some backtucks !!
and now
its FREAKING swollen
and yeap !
can't even walk properly
i'm so SCREWED
RAWR !!
i hate you ken lim
SUAY until home !!




anyway

CHAANG said this to me
"STOP GIVING YOURSELF EXCUSE TO SIAM !!"
ok chaang
i got that

problems upon problems
being raised
problems remains
while ages passes
pride & ego
let them go

you're slowly creeping into my life
i don't know if its a good thing or not
hahx !!

i got bitterness
i got resentment
co0l right?
resenting them !!
damn
damn !!
damn damn !!

you only bear resentment towards something that is important to you
that's even co0ler right?
sian
sian !!
sian sian !!

i should
no
i will and i must
let it go
:)

100th entry !!

really hopes to see you everyday
but, it seems the time aint right yet

1st liberty photo

^^

realised that i updated quite frequently
probably because many things happened
and many thought ran through my mind recently
hahaha
who knows?
hopefully i don't think too much








































i just hope
everything run smoother and smoother from now on

when everything falls in place perfectly
everything will run smoothly
bear that in mind
no single journey is smooth sailing
you are riding the wind smoothly now
but do prepare for storms to appear in no time
weakness will show in time
and eventually
you have to overcome it
everyone is like that
don't think that others are lucky
because they can't push their luck very far
basis of achievement
hardworks

did i make the right decision?

i've got a strange feeling
it feels like
numerous pairs of eyes are watching closely
not the excitement to see the accomplishments by me
but the eagerness to see the downfall of me
is it jealousy?
is it hatred?
is it hypocrisy?
i do not know
perhaps he* was right
hypocrites are everywhere


*a note to he
"I think you should seriously quickly make a change and get out of where you are now"

One more thing for you guys. You won't improve by keep whinning about how lousy you are.
It doesn't help in anyway and it just irritates people.
They don't blame you for not being good.
They might just be unhappy that you're not doing anything to change that fact.









found this one justin's blog
thats a great reminder for everyone including myself


peeeps !
do remember
NATO
is not what you want to be

a lot of things happened for the past few days/weeks/months


gain some
loss some
great
wonderful
bad
awful

well, i guess
life's like this
God is fair
you won't have all good things
you got some
you loss some


and yeah !
i finally got what I've longing for
finally a step to a greater height
yet, i don't really feel the thrill
of course, I'm happy
I mean really that I'm happy
being able to see the bunch of people that I've wanted to see so much
being able to be in the presence of a bunch of eagles
being able to become an eagle soon enough in the near future
I love it
I'm so totally loving it
I guess its really time to work harder than that what I've been working one
















life sucks, take drugs
-TYF

PS: that's TYF for you, yea bro?
hahahax !! :P















woooooooohooooooooooo !!
now i'm getting real excited !!
yeah yeah yeah
shifu !!
i'm finally coming at you now
FINALLY !!
you can guess how happy i am
and i did my lib already
more to go i know
more to train i know
i will work harder
shifu, you still owe me a few videos !!
hahahax !!

its easier to kill a man than to make him cry
because it takes more than pain to make a man cry
and i respect guys who weep
because guys who act strong and do not weep are pussies !!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAx !!
note that i use ACT STRONG :)














i hope people still have the simplest, basic and fundamental courtesy to apologise
damn !!
feel so unfair for *peeeeeeep*
KNN !!
RAWR !!
PISSED !!
damn pissed !!



SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP !!

its not the first time
its not the second time
and there will be a forth time on Sunday
if you people like to protect your friend so much
instead of covering up their ass
why not try asking them start fucking clean up their own fucking ass?
allowing others to be blamed for your stupidity
its damn selfish
while you're protecting your precious friend
you are hurting others who are innocent
it's a vicious cycle until you start doing something about your friend
its damn selfish
to let others bear your pain
no sorry can make up to it
no apologies could erase the trace of your selfishness


i hope people will start learning to grow
especially those who are of the age start with 2
goodnight

如果我们之间有1000步的距离
　　
你只要跨出第1步
　　
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
　　


　　
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
　　
才是真正爱你的人
　　


　　
付出真心　才会得到真心
　　
却也可能伤得彻底
　　
保持距离　就能保护自己
　　
却也注定永远寂寞
　　


　　
有时候　不是对方不在乎你
　　
而是你把对方看得太重
　　


　　
朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人
　　


　　
就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie
　　


　　
真正的好朋友
　　
并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
　　
而是在一起　就算不说话
　　
也不会感到尴尬
　　


　　
没有一百分的另一半
　　
只有五十分的两个人
　　


　　
为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
　　
为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
　　
为你的难过而难过的
　　
就是那些　该放进心里的人
　　


　　
冷漠　有时候并不是无情
　　
只是一种避免被伤害的工具

too young to be feeling sorry for yourself
too old to be this damn stupid

nobody is prouder of this team than i am
but pride doesn't win football games
HARDWORK win football games
individuals have stepped up
but individuals doesn't win football games
TEAM wins football games

Unfinishedjourney Uploaded by contraholic




MY RESPECT to all of them
you guys rock !!
:)

had a revelation the other day when i came back from perth
the moment you slacked
you loss twice the amount of effort


1.you loss the amount of effort the put in
(apparently you will DEprove right? like your muscle shrink a bit)

2.you loss the amount of effort that you could have put in
(some thing like opportunity cost. the opportunity cost of you slacking is you never get to improve)



so if you slack
in order to gain back what you should have
you need to work twice as much
and twice the time needed
waste time and make yourself suffer
lOLx !!




so peeps !
please don't slack !
hahahahax !!
i regret for slacking that tiny little bit !!
DAMN !!
wooohoooo ~

jiayou jiayou jiayou

i'm scared !!
that's why i'm even more motivated
that's why i'm even more DETERMINED





























shifu got pop over in 1 month
i will show you back tuck in one week
lolx !!
it's at different level thou
XD
woots !!

GO
GO
GO

inferiority keeps me going









































because i feel sucks about myself
that's why i try harder
it's unhealthy actually
please don't be like me

CRAPPINGS !!

leave or stay?




been pondering over this issue for quite some time
i know what's best for me
but,
probably i'm too scared to face the consequences




to leave or to stay?




you were once the reason that made me wanted to stay
but
you're making me feel like i'm not important to you at all
or maybe
i was the one who made you feel that you're not important to me
oh wells
guess
i really don't know how to love a person eh
because
i don't see myself doing things which someone who's in love would do
or maybe i don't really love you at all
it was just a crush?
it was just for killing time?
it was just for anything buy love?
oh sucks...
i don't like the word love
because
it carries a very heavy responsibility
maybe
i should stop loving someone
ahh crap !!
go gym again
holiday !!
time to gym !!
i still have promises i have yet to fulfill
wait on peeps
you will see the brand new ken
that soar like an eagle
high high high high high high ~
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
YOU BETTER WATCH OUT !!
*sound like fighting*
oh wells...
like marco has said
"i've try so hard to win, yet in the end i still lose"
so why keep on trying?
damn it
that's the point in life isn't it?
achieving what seems impossible
but the key is
you can't do it alone
unless you are strong on the inside and outside
apparently i'm not strong enough yet
but still
i will fight on
shifu said i've lost my fighting spirit
actually, i still has it
its just in another form
its just for another purpose
winner create an opportunity
loser wait for one
i'm a loser because i'm waiting for one
but, hopefully, i'm not a total loser that when opportunity arises
i don't grab hold of it
YES !!
this should be the reason i leave
away from my home ground
even though i'm already away from my home ground (malaysia)
probably this time i will go further
damn it !!
but i really like both places
how?
life's like this man
you can't have both
especially when both are GOOD
LOLX !!
like a pretty girl doesn't have a good figure
someone with a good figure doesn't look pretty
God is fair
well, occasionally people come telling me
she's pretty and has got a good figure
oh wells...
you don't know what she's going through and gone through
maybe she has a split personality that kind of thing
mental problem maybe
lolx!!
God is fair? NO !!
i should say
LIFE's FAIR
thats more like it
people out there
if you think you're ill treated
you will know one day that the person who ill treated you will be ill treated
so, the pricipal in life is
BE KIND to EVERYONE
even when they are nasty towards you
and what you can do is till the day they are down with problems
you can go and console and comfort them
and most importantly criticise them for what they've done to you
OHSHIT !! this is not kind at all

lolx !!

oh craps !
crapped alot


anyway,
BYE !! off to gym !!
:)

love all visitors to this blog
see you guys around

XOXO