my right knee is getting bad
in fact, its worst than before
it never caused me so much pain before
endured, endured and endured
sorry that i couldn't pop well
not an excuse to NOT POP WELL of course
sorry that i couldn't cushion well
not an excuse to NOT CUSHION WELL as well

sorry if i injured anyone
next time if i'm in pain
i will stop training

PS: i'm not trying to explain or try to gain sympathy

i'm not a person who like to explain


people who understands and has got eyes to see
they will UNDERSTAND without me EXPLAINING

people who do not understands and only has got eyes to see what the eyes want to see
they would not understand even if i try to explain

so why bother explaining?

i think my SIP company is damn freaking ON
in within one week of appointment
they actually offered two jobs
one which i've done on monday
a family day event
another one which is coming up
a cheerleading coaching job
i still not sure if i want to take it
$50/hour for two days
3 hours each day
co0l right?
ok !! NVM !!
-.-

indeed
3months in wildcards
i achieved liberty and cupie
shifu said it was a good improvement
look at the positive things as well
there are more to go man
really more to go
hahahax !!

thank you for the trust
totally appreciate it

first liberty with jaslyn as well as the first liberty photo with her
didn't realised until she told me
ok !!
-.-
who else i haven't do liberty with?!!




cupie?
i seriously don't feel that I'm ready for that yet
my liberty isn't that good yet
simply not good enough
my toss-to-hands failed a couple of times
which pisses me even further
ok, sucks !!
but, cupie-ing huiting was a great experience thou
can feel feel stunt
fun
cupie is fun for sure





anyway, SHIFU
you might think i want to say "SHIFU, that's for you"
nah
THAT'S DEFINITELY NOT GOOD ENOUGH YET
next time show you a video
or maybe real life one
:)
jiayou !!

stop being so easily satisfied with your current state will you?
its irritating
damn irritating
quit being a liability
at times, your friends around you
they need to put up with you and your "DREAMS"
DREAMS which you have no intention to achieve
proudly telling people THAT'S MY DREAM
or maybe when people tell you off
you reply "I CANNOT DREAM AR?"
c'mon man
be realistic
YES, you can DREAM
if that's what you wanted
then go ahead and dwell in your daylight dream



actually, i type until here
i realised something
why should i care?
hahahahax !!
i'm too lazy to be concerned anyway
hahahax !!
ok, i shall stop here

don't dislike me please

i don't really know exactly how you guys felt
BUT
that's how i thought when i read things on the blog


IF, you guys could have put in effort like the amount you guys are putting in right now
PROBABLY, we would all be at another level right now
MAYBE, you guys grown as you guys assume more RESPONSIBILITIES
GROWN to be a little more MATURE
ABLE to be SENSITIVE towards others' feelings
just WONDERING
HAVE you guys thought this way
"IF, we could have done what we are doing now back then. Things could be different now"?
It's not like I'm asking you guys to go EMO and REGRET and WHATSOEVER
Just, don't let history repeats itself
overall
I seriously believe and think that you guys really rock my socks !!
:)
jiayou !!

OK CRAP !!

early in the morning hear the news of

MICHAEL JACKSON IS DEAD

WTH !!

RAWR !!

Really, is, dots...

another talent had gone

SWINE FLU?

lol !!

it was said to be a heart attack

sometimes just wondering
whether should i continue providing helps
i know that helps are definitely needed
the fact that i'm in-debt to her made me feel obliged to return to where i consumed the WATER
however, sometimes, just felt that its a waste of time?
not exactly waste of time
just couldn't find the right word
its just, no matter how much i want to help
but the people are not helping themselves
how far can they go?
and most probably they doubt me at certain point of times

so, yeap
ohwells,
i guess


maybe SHE was right
"WHY SHOULD WE HELP?"





its a mixture of feelings
there's nothing right or wrong
just
yea
don't take it to heart people
i love you guys
you guys really ROCK my world

每一天 想一遍

編曲: A Lon 詞: Eric 演唱者: Eric/A Lon

你 在地球另一邊 溫暖的Christchurch的夏天
書包裡的相片 你我笑容沒改變

我 在世界這一邊 台北街頭的冬天
一個人 默默的喝著熱咖啡

No matter what happens
No matter where you go
我會守著誓言

風吹過我身邊
彷彿在訴說著你 給的諾言

每一天 想一遍
遠方的你是否對我一樣思念
月依舊美 少了你陪伴剩眼淚

每一天 想一遍
二十四小時關在你幸福監牢裡面
勇氣陪我度過漫長的每天


手機 響起熟悉音樂 電話那頭喊我寶貝
溫暖了我的心 天空瞬間不再灰

知道 幸福就在眼前 再等多久都不累
再遙遠 只要堅強就有永遠

No matter what happens
No matter where you go
我會守著誓言

風吹過我身邊
彷彿在訴說著你 給的諾言


每一天 想一遍
遠方的你是否對我一樣思念
月依舊美 少了你陪伴剩眼淚

每一天 想一遍
二十四小時關在你幸福監牢裡面
勇氣陪我度過漫長的每天

每一天 想一遍
期待下一秒你出現緊抱著我Babe
夜空劃過流星線 帶著我的 思念到你身邊

我會等待 等待著再次與你 牽起愛

a lot of good things have been happening eh
i got my GO for cupie from chaang
i got my SIP placement already in just one day
i got an A for my M.I.C.E test
surprises



are these good things that happen before bad omens?
hahaha !!
-.-

"the upbringing of a man comes from watching the back of the man who's walking ahead"




who's back am i watching?

hahahahahahahahx !!
lets do it again :)

ken the greatest motivator?
nah, you guys over-rated me
i think my shifu is the best

每天早上兩顆蛋、

每天早上兩顆蛋：建議每天第一餐要吃兩顆七分熟的蛋，七分熟的煎蛋最好，蛋黃不要太熟，雞蛋當中含有100％HDL，是製造血清素的原料。

膽固醇可分為好的膽固醇(即HDL)與壞的膽固醇(即LDL)，好的膽固醇每天攝取 0.3gm 即可。如果我們一天能夠吃兩個蛋，那就可以幫助人體攝取一日所需的蛋白質需求量，只要我們體內好的膽固醇含量提高，則壞的膽固醇含量相對的就會降低。然買蛋時建議購買「洗選蛋(CAS)」更佳；「阿婆鐵蛋」少吃，因其中蛋白質已變質，含致癌物喔！

好的膽固醇尚有沒有腳的海鮮類，有殼的最好，如蝦、蟹；但是魚皮, 魚鰓, 內臟及魚標禁吃，唯小卷的內臟可食，因富含防癌成分，小卷吃中間黑色粘多醣比較營養，又海參是海中生物中唯一零蛋白質的食物；再其次有好的膽固醇是兩隻腳的雞肉、鴨肉。

SOYA BEAN ROCKS !!

received an email from my friend about how to eat healthily
decided to share
its quite long actually, so i'm not going to post everything in one day
and too bad its in mandarin
ya, i'm too lazy to translate
soya bean is good !! but not too much please !!
drink in moderate !!

睡前喝豆漿、
睡前喝豆漿：豆漿富含的優質胺基酸，可製造充分的生長激素，促進身體的新陳代謝，消耗體內多餘的醣份和脂肪，所以睡前喝豆漿，有減肥的的效果，這就是「胺基酸減肥法」，又叫「懶人減肥法」。

此外，大豆富含異黃酮素（天然的雌激素），可降低血液中的膽固醇，保護心臟，預防心肌梗塞，所以女生得心血管疾病的機率只有男生的六分之一，異黃酮素並可抑制人體鈣質的流失，還可預防與基因遺傳有關的乳癌與腸癌，因此睡前喝上一杯的豆漿，冷熱甜淡隨意，可讓您有一個好睡眠、好體質。

但是現在市面上的黃豆有是基因改造的，目前基因改造的食品對人體的影響如何還未可知，如何購買非基因改造豆漿，建議購買統一、味全、光泉、黑松、義美等各品牌，尤其義美豆漿便宜 又無防腐劑喔，睡前喝比早上喝的效益更大。另外，早餐以豆漿加熱後打兩個蛋不加糖，可吸收好的蛋白質及好膽固醇。使孩子易長高。

"being strong is to have the strength to keep on living bearing all the pain worse than death"




example:
living with major failures in life







now that's being strong
i want to be that strong
MORE THAN A SAD STORY

if you look at me as a loser
congratulate yourself
because you get to witness a loser making history

why can't we just freaking live in peace?
ITS OUR COMMUNITY, you know?

why must you constantly picking fight with others?
NOT PAIN ENOUGH?

why are you so not happy with whatever other people do?

you are so damn retard at times, do you know that?
someone as highly respected as you
you do shits like that
its just
c'mon grow up man
maybe that's the reason you're stuck there for so long and going to stuck for several years ahead

"humility is not a denial of strength, but admitting your weakness"




i need to be humble
therefore
i need huMBility
LOL !!
joke aside







reminded me of several person
a whole range of people
pastors
leaders
friends
cheerleaders



who is he that hold humility in his heart?
i wondered

if you think you're the best in cheerleading
why not you just do it and show to others
you guys are so OFFENSIVE and HOSTILE
and get offended so easily
like so childish please



大話說了可得做到哦
別那石頭砸自己的腳

be an asset, not liability



just suddenly came back to me again
oh wells !!
mader !!
thats what you taught me
i still remember ok?!!
:D

i want to improve
i need to freaking get my freaking back tuck up
I DONT WANT TO BE A LIABILITY !!
RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR RAWR !!

you are so damn damn hot !!
like seriously
SUPER DUPER UBER DAMN FREAKING
HOT !!
damn !!
how did i get to know you man?
you are so DAMN HOT !!
even if you get a little fatter
you get even HOTTER !!
OH GAWD ~

okies !!
not going anymore than this
just being retarded here
can't be help

















oh wells
home all night with my grandma
woots
sianx !!


project again
sian
i mean SBS !!
Si Bei Sian





bye~

just want to say a big thank you to my previous coach
Akane Nakahara
thanks for all that you've taught me
especially arm motions and kicks
they have been really great help
now i know their importance
thank you
^^

from nothing to being able to do toss to hand and liberty in a year
that's definitely improvement
but its just not great enough





damn it !!





lalalalalala




shit ~
shit shit ~
shit shit shit ~


more of those to come
but oh wells
gotta take it as it is
haix !!
jiayou beh

just got reminded how far i've walked since i first started cheerleading
it was, its been such a long long long time
such a long walk already
and i know there're still more to come
i'm really really thankful and grateful to all those who helped me
just felt so nostalgic
those days
those moments
especially when i was stunting with ms.flyer
ohwells
those who know who she is good for you
don't spread please thank you
those who don't know
its alright
nothing big about this :)
felt so encouraged
i was stupid and stupid and stupider
not like i became cleverer
i'm still stupid and slow
those encourages kept me going
hopefully i could be the one encouraging people next time
ohwells
thousands words
decipher them for yourself
that's if you know me
hahahax !! :)
alright !!
jiayou people !!

















CONGRATS WILDCARDS FOR CHAMPION-ING SKM 2009 !!
proud of you guys to the max
love you guys to the max

thousands words in all these photos
each carry its own meaning

哀傷的歡呼聲