recap of what was going on back then


I hit my liberty perfectly and it was stable
I was happy and satisfied and thinking that its going to be an ASU for me
So I go for my double take to shoulder stand
When I dropped Nellie's legs to my shoulders, her left leg slipped !
We tried to fight but failed
So we quickily tried to do another toss shoulder stand to recover from the stunt
I tossed up, and her legs reached me
For all I know, her left leg slipped, yet again
So, we have to quickily recover the stunt by doing a CLIMB UP shoulder stand
NO PRIDE at all please
After the opening sequence, after I pop-ed Nellie down, all I could do was APOLOGISE
Although all the other stunts went up
But that still doesn't give the satisfaction of hitting an ASU
FUCK !!

Indeed, like Chaang said 'Disappointing'
Disappointed in myself
What more can I say?

So much so of being a SBSS
BBG !!
what a joke !!


failed a stunt in a performance for the first time
worst still, a SHOULDER STAND
to make things worst, failed TWICE including the one when trying to recover from the failed stunt
how disappointing?
the feeling was

DEPRESSING

all I hear during debrief were only

WHO FAILED STUNT?

ALL OUT

FALLEN SHORT

sigh

there're much more works to be done
Maybe I have forgotten what HUMILITY meant all these while
I guess it happens once in a while
I guess we all need to grow up
and
need to learn to stop sweating over little stuff
BUAY GAN JIU BUAY GAN loh
then how?
SAD STORY and CRY?
FML man !